I finally cut the fabric for my Pendrell top, and I've been catching up on all the Pendrell Sew-Along posts and comments. Wow! Tasia's very thorough in her tutorials and she responds to everyone who had a question.
I think the reason I didn't start sooner is I was planning on preserving the original pattern by tracing it onto some other paper. But I imagined it would be painful and time consuming, so I put it off and consequently put off making the blouse.
Last night, I gave up on the idea and decided to cut the tissue to my size. I made all the alterations on the tissue - shortened the length and reduced the hip size. I had to press my wrinkled fabric and pull it out of its off grain-ness. For the first time, I made sure the grain line was perfectly aligned with the folded edge. The grid and diagonal lines really helped me with the bias strips. For the first time, I cut around my pattern size and cut the tissue with my fabric. But I messed up the cutting step.
It's very disheartening that after spending two hours being so meticulous with the fabric and the layout, I ended up with jagged fabric edges. I know I should be as precise as possible with everything in sewing. But how do I know when it's even enough, on grain enough, smooth enough? How do I know when I should stay up another hour fixing the seemingly unfixable? How do I know when it's time to give up on a project?
I've made some disappointing garments, taken a few shortcuts and made a lot of mistakes, but somehow my friends (all my friends are non-sewing) were still awed by the results of my labour. But I can't help but judge my work based on the standards of people who actually sew. And goodness, the quality of work on sewing blogs is amazingly high. Even the beginners!
I know practice makes perfect, or at least 10,000 hours of sewing will make me an expert. I just needed a gripe. I will make the Pendrell blouse, jagged edges and all. Just another one of my many make it work moments.